run-awayx's Diaryland Diary
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moooooooveerrrrr.
haha i moved!
i noe, like wth like i had anyth t move :X
ahaaaaaaa. :D
tooodless
2:53 a.m. - 10.22.06
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graduating,
in 5
4
3
2
1
oh no, make that 1/2 a day.
hahah.!
goodbye goodbye
my dear anglican high :D
i wan to take photos with all
the people i love tmr.!
ohh thats like, everyone?
HAHAH! but ya i want to (:
4 years back, i thought to myself
' 6/9 is my bestestt cls ever'
and i thought of how i'd totally miss them.
4 years ltr, i cant officially say tt ;
'4J is my bestest cls, now'
and i still do miss 6/9..!.
recently met so many sixniners,
tw, calvin, marcus, jg, sylvia
( at openhouse lahh)
and damn do i miss them.!
ohh well. my memories of ahs (;
crappyland. hahahah!
6:58 p.m. - 10.19.06
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8:26 p.m. - 10.18.06
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hahahh
okay, so i realised ppl do read this rubbish.. :D
tho its mostly blank, hahaha
(wahlao why still read? lol.)
saysay. so;LOOK!
:D!
12:19 a.m. - 10.18.06
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.ppfffttttt.
omg.
ya lah i realised im really fat and ugly :(
and im totally convinced i am..!..
.uurrrppps. :((
dont remind me abt the photos :((
hahah.
6:39 p.m. - 10.17.06
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10:29 a.m. - 10.13.06
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:D:D:D
immaaa highhh onnn maatthhhhhsssss! :D
5:09 a.m. - 10.13.06
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oh dear,
:( i cant study lei. i cant..
imma not a mugger anymore :(((((
thats makes me very sad.
veryvery sad :'(
8:28 p.m. - 10.12.06
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12:16 a.m. - 10.12.06
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The world would be a lonely place
Without the one that puts a smile on your face
Cause I've got you to make me feel stronger
When the days are rough and an hour seems much longer
Yeah when I've got you
Oh to make me feel better
11:53 p.m. - 10.10.06
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my dad.
*gets all ready for schoool.
lugs myself outta bed. bathes.
changes into school uniform,
sits at table stoning & packing bag
dad: eh? thought you say donwan go school?
me: yah...
dad: den go for what? waste time
dad: if you really dontwant go dont go lah,nvm one. can go sleep a few more hours oso good what! you friends going sch?
me: yah.. all going
dad: dont care them its alright you dontwant go just stay at home
....
see la? my dad.
8:24 a.m. - 10.10.06
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7:35 p.m. - 10.09.06
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ugh.
you know, i just dont want anything more to do with you people.
i've been trying,
to love you guys again
but i guess i can forgive, i cannot forget.
no, more like i dont want to.
and neither can i 'not bother'
(when you're right there in my face)
this world is so screwed, isnt it?
which is why this world has nothing left for me.
ugh.
come on pls let me and my lil ass off from all these misery.
go awayyy.
honestly id rather be a loner.
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why
why is my heart so bitter?
why isit i cannot forget?
why am i being so evil?
why do i pray everyday tt God will let me love you,
yet everyday i realise i cant
WHY.
im not being hypocritical
im doing it in your face.
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why isit that i keep
telling myself everything can be back t normal
then the sight of your actions irks me
its so revolting- the contradictions.
you give me a heavy heart.
im not like that, you know?
9:50 a.m. - 10.09.06
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10:54 p.m. - 10.08.06
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this world has nothing for me.
9:39 p.m. - 10.08.06
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I DISLIKE,
you and you and you
and everything abt
your scheming asses.
ugh.
9:16 p.m. - 10.08.06
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ARTICULATE.
'an animal that runs very fast with SPOTS'
hy: ' ZEBRA!'
'where did adam and eve meet?'
:D :' UNDER THE APPLE TREE!'
'what makes you _________ _________?'
joseph: '___________'
HAHA. explicit.!!
10:12 p.m. - 10.06.06
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lo lo lo
haha hello!
i feeeel like irritating ppl hahah!
yes spposed t be studying, wth.
3 movies in 2 weeks hahah so rock.
haven touched any boook todayyy
and imma gonna be sleeping SOON!
past few days been ooookay?
i mean. screw the ppl tt _____ me,
must learn must learn not to care.
hahahh. over-estimating buses in the mornnn. hahaa.
i honestly think its fun! (;
poker, hope you get well soon (:
AND. we have moqi in raising flags hahah :D
ohh and the haze is so BAD. likee whoah!
its like being at a bbq?
BUT W/O FOOD! waaaaaa!
haha. i think. im high.
and tired :|
alright. imma let this be here till tmr morn.
when i decide its gonna be white again
love you love you love you take care ppl i do care smile :D
(j1s dont stress!)
9:46 p.m. - 10.06.06
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11:30 p.m. - 09.27.06
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hahah.
run run run run run.
away.
thats just what i wanna do.
mebbe this is how it all started,
how i started not trusting,
not believing people anymore.
to the extent of shutting myself out;
right right right?
well its not gonna happen.
YEAHHH. IN YOUR FACE. HAHAH.
well well well because its right i aint
trusting _______ anymore,
but. i dont really care, do you? (:
im not going to let this affect myy walk with myy God.
in your face in your face hahahhh.
im so mean lahh, i cant stand it.
see what the world's done to me,
i wasn't like that before.
honestly!
i was nice. y'noe.
ahh, listen goooood.
because for now for now, im just not gonna care.
not gonna let ppl affect my;
STRAIGHT AND NARROW PATH.
do i hear an amen to that? (:
hahahhh. i hope you and you and you read this.
ok this is bad. tell me im evil.
but im leavin it here,anyways.
8:19 p.m. - 09.27.06
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i love
Jesus.
Jesus loves me.
(deeply in love hor. dont try t break us apart!)
WAH. so sweet lei.
thankyou. (:
10:19 p.m. - 09.26.06
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listen to me.
do you think im sensitive?
well i think i know i am.
towards what people think of me, what they feel- that is.
you know what, listen.
because, i am not happy.
i know, with kick-ass results like mine, i should be on cloud 9.
well no, i am not.
in fact, i am just freaking annoyed.
irritated.
because i jolly well know, can feel, what the people around me are thinking.
and yeah it sucks.
big time.
i dunno how to explain this, just that-
im feeling so worked up, so stuck being around them.
this time i really need to scream.
i really feel like crying.
its like, smth it.. kept inside of me.
i think, i need help.
I NEED I NEED I NEED I NEED TO. SCREAM.
7:50 p.m. - 09.26.06
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9:42 a.m. - 09.22.06
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Daddy,
jus taking time out of studying(sleeping actually) to think
yes think-
yess in shock over the recent deaths.
i was relatively shocked hearing abt steve irwin as i was studying,
you know it jus came unexpected.
next, samuel tan.
you know as much as i probably havent talked/seen him for the past what 4-6 years?
but i do miss this guy.
was jus flipping through the 97/98 yearbook
and i realised how he stood behind me/sat beside me
yep. this guy was my clsmate (3years) i actually nvr really got to know.
but he was nice. owell i was primary 1?
i probably didnt realise people around existed.
tho im nt close t him i kinda feel impacted by his death
if you died today, would you regret?
i would. many things undone. unaccomplished. words unsaid.
but then again lets believe that God has a plan for everyone of us.
and im sure its jus a part of God's big plan that He's taking sam away.
i think his passing on has impacted many lives,
woken up many.
yupp. hey cherish your life (:
11:53 p.m. - 09.18.06
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The world would be a lonely place,
Without the one that puts a smile on your face.
5:22 p.m. - 09.17.06
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Daddy,
why do people die?
3:02 a.m. - 09.17.06
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9:53 a.m. - 09.16.06
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Hello, my name is Kelly.
7:13 p.m. - 09.13.06
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WE'RE GONNA DANCE DANCE DANCE
IN THE FREEDOM WE KNOW
because the freedom we know is gonna last FOREVER.
5:36 p.m. - 09.10.06
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dancee.
WE'RE GONNA DANCE DANCE DANCE
IN THE FREEDOM WE KNOW
5:35 p.m. - 09.10.06
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8:46 p.m. - 09.07.06
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thanks.
but hey, life goes on.
a day like any other.
8:24 p.m. - 09.07.06
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tribute to hillary (:
05-09th sept 2005!
yes im actually missing you guys like crap.
wondering how 1year has passed so quickly & we're all mugging sh.t for prelims nw
chiobu's still as chio :D i saw her yty!
i remember the times we;
-shouted for our dearest 'CHIOBU' across the entire compound and all the bhb-self-proclaimed 'chio' girls wld turn! haha.
-had t eat wenlin&juyee's horrible whats-in-that-thing 'food'. im sorry i cant cook (:
-KILLED THE ANTS! with the guys deodorants. haha that fire thingg.
-walked arnd the entire ubin with that darrnnnn heavy bag (plus boonkai grumbling hw hungry he was :)
-jj&i cursed each other who wld haf the worst birthday!! ya la it was me. haha
- how we got to the quarry site (FIRST CAN), through the urm, guy's toilet.(ya i rmb bryan and his urm. poo. and urm. the flies
-sat arnd at night arnd our "bashar" haha. the night by the quarry was the ultimum. how we all ended up sleeping on that what, canvas sheet feeding mosquitoes.
(oh plus the 3 guys lie so cute/gay tgth lmao.)
oh plus how we got so freaked out by the "old woman with banjo" story. den we heard the music. AND IT WAS THE TECHNO FROM THE KELONG OPP!
-laughed at daryl because he likes to look at urm, big birds??
-ALL WENT TO THE TOILET TO DO OUR -AHEM- BUSINESS TGTH!
-washed the stupid pots. haha :]
-tried to walk faster, but knowing that we wont be first anyway laa
- the night walk. damn memorable. i was damn brave can! and blind at night :D.. but we made it. ya, our promises.
-the morning circles we sat arnd and crapped? lol but it was meaningful afterall (:
-had at the post-obs-trip @ seoul garden! bk's 4h eating marathon & the ham who liked urm.. icecream?
-oh plus, our GAYPOK CHEER! wahlao how can forget? gaypokk gaypokk. na li pokpok? na li pokpok! haha. explicit content laa.
-andand. our tap sum bong :D haha the best rubbish bin EVERRRR. i rmb the CLAPS.
*** i forgot this! the last night tgth;
the instant noodles we saved. haha save all till we cannot eat finish -.-
how me and wenlin imitated AHEM&AHEM. utterly disgusting can the sight of us. heh (;
how we made alot noise! den pretend it wasnt us when the instructors came.
how we didn't wash finish our pots&pans because we were too busy eating the noodles& playing. so we dumped all the food tgth in our stall :D lol the overnight crap.
oh ya the night walk wher we all so humji, started praying. & on the way down all i cld see was, jj's butt.
how we set our tents that night in a circle! uber sweet.
how wen& i were v hungry and bk threw over to us prunes?!?!! wth. haha.
ahh yes. ppl might say we're not the best,
but hey we THINK WE ARE,
because WE KNOW WE ARE :D
this crazy unexplainable bond btwn us 15 people-
loved you guys! ok la, if your nt hillary mebbe you dunno what im toking? but jus know this, we rocked.
CLAPS.
7:33 p.m. - 09.05.06
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HELLO>
hello
7:24 p.m. - 09.05.06
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knows me like you do.
no dont bother abt the prev entry.
ive decidedd that im very bored& overly annoyed with all the nonsensical negative feelings that constantly stir up within me. GO AWAYY. & leave me alone! i realised im kinda dumb? ya thinking while studyinggg. and SO: i dont wanna be feelin sadsad & all that shyt again.
haf u ever felt tt it hurt so much you finally decided to let go..?
but then you still wont.
HA. :D
alrighty! well i'll be happy ((:
studying makes me happy?!
lol studying makes me think. and thinking makes me happier!
because:
It is said that all people who are happy have God within them! :D
7:01 p.m. - 08.03.06
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